Up-lifting

From the looks of this blog, it doesn’t look like I have much of a life, because I rarely update on where I’ve been and what I’ve been doing away from the internets. I have a hell lot of photos i need to upload to my com. =.=

Anyway, been mario karting aggressively whenever there are ds-es to go around, been eating much cake because of the many birthday parties these past few weeks, dragging myself to the east for (forced) beauty purposes, and the overspending on dvds this year – yes, I have bought a total of 20 dvds this year. And best is I bought most of them after June.

I’m dying~

So I went to watch Up yesterday, and oh man how inspiring it was. I love the animation, love the colours, love the rendering, the lighting, the concept, the music, EVERYTHING. Oh and damn I WANT THAT ANIMATED SHORT AT THE BEGINNING OF THE MOVIE. BRILLIANT. I would watch it again. I shall say no more. Just watch it. You will like it.

Fasting month is coming this sat. I’m so excited. I want to iftar with old friends, bake cookies, read the Quran more and terawih every night.

I’m quite motivated by the fact that my runnings have shown effect. Hope I can keep this up still!

And gah, Lis is leaving soon. I’m so gonna miss her! WHO WILL CONJURE UP STORIES WITH ME AND CRAZY CHARACTERS DAMMIT T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T_T

Oh well, I know everyone has to go their own ways someday.. but goodbyes are always hard and I hate goodbyes!

-rolls around and screams murder-

Lost

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, “Where you been?”
He said, “Ask anything”.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin’ on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who’s ever known
Who I am
Who I’m not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
[ The Fray Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin’ on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I’ve been callin’
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin’ on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin’ on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why’d you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

Hekkushun.

Today I have a story to tell
you about your “tell me too”
Sustain yourself (to) disdain
myself and so “I hate you”

Compensates are crawling to
your skin and under attitude
Say, never say
Well I do “I hate you”

“Maji de mou shinitee” shinji mae
Omae toka zehi tomo shinji mae
Maiban teisshu totomo ni nemuru BEIBII
Seishi tachi moro tomo kiechimae (BAIBII)
E?! Doko? Nani? Sore ore kara na no?
sorry, you should’ve get another one
“Omae no iku toko wa tengoku ja nai” to
Sou negatte yama nai kyou kono goro
NO!!!!!!!! ho-ho-ho
Konna omoi ni sase nai de yo
Itsukara daka wasureta kono kimochi
Kono karada ga hibi motomeru ikari itami
Kore ga yorokobi kanji sasete kureru yuiitsu no hikari
Naraba ne kore wo CHOUDAI shina

I’ll never gonna like you, look upon you,
like you did to me
Mama told me not be like you
just beat’em and to lose’em free
your not even a human,
a human beyond this trueman
screaming, dreaming
whatever you do is not inside your feeling

I know why you hate me,
how to DIS me, disrespecting me
Shabby that’s my name, you gave me a name,
well thank you now I’m free
Now I’m gonna lick’em and then I will stick’em,
bitching itching after all now
All I do is just to kiss him

Boku no naka ni aru furecha ike nai toko ni
Boku wa tama ni wazato sawatte miru
Boku wa dare? Nante TABUU wo kangaeru toki
Boku wa jibun wo koroshite miru

Koko ni nai ikutsu mono ikari wa
Kotoba ni naru no wo osore nige mashita
Bokura wa ima boku no naka
Afureru no wo hitasura machi mashita

Boku ga nakeba naku hodo dareka
Waraerun dato wakatte ita
Dakedo boku mo ichiou itsumo
Mainichi ningen nanda

Moshimo hikari no tame ni kage ga aru naraba
Boku no tame no
Itami dato demo iu nara kono ikari ga
Koe ga kuro ga boku wa ima kara

“Ima” wo sutete boku wo wasure
Ningen no niji wo akara miru no
Warau no ka na utau no ka na
Soretomo olo wo tomeru no ka na

I was dreaming of I was singing of
I was never to be able but was dreaming of
being never raged, being never raged
just being filled with laughter and sorrow

I’ll never gonna like you, look upon you,
like you did to me
Mama told me not be like you
just beat’em and to lose’em free
(I) don’t even want to fuck you
(you know why?)
cuz I’ll get venereal
(I do) I don’t want my kid to sit in
next of ex-of hero kid

I know why you hate me,
how to DIS me, disrespecting me
Shabby that’s my name, you gave me a name,
well thank you now I’m free
Can tell it from your sight and
your voice and your eyes that goes up and down
just like your licking,
sucking my **** “it’s mine!!”

Uso mo sora mo shin no zou mo
Koe mo toki ga ugokasu no
Kitto dare mo kitto “Ima” mo
“Sei” nado shirie nai no

Shirie nai no
and today someone’s are afraid

So Cold

What is a heart?